Surprise! Surprise!
The asshole who thinks he is god viewed my account in friendster. *LMAO*. I was not really expecting it and plus I really don’t want to give it a damn but he just called me a psycho. Well I don’t have any problem with that me calling a psycho or a wacko or anything to that effect, but I just observed that there is still angst? *laughs* I wonder why? It’s been like almost two years baby the emotion should not be there. Well, it isn’t my problem anymore. I just find it really funny. Until now he never recognizes his fault. Well in my end I know there are some gnarly things that I did already mentioned that to him a very long time now but will I believe his so called god is ingraining that kind of values to him. Again of course the stereotyping is still there well it is very normal with people who congratulates them self too much. He hates me because I went to UP? Or he hates people who attended UP because deep inside he wished to be part of UP system? Not sure though. Well he is not “bobo” in academic sense; I gave him that he can actually go beyond on what he is now. I mean he can be better than that, but well I know what are missing; character and self realization. I am saying these things not because I am perfect and I want to play god, but it is just that I am the person out of his box. Well that was before though.
Why do I care?
Not really.
It is really a good thing though that I manage to know his whereabouts and happy at least things are well with him except for the stereotypical thingy and anguish. If anguish is still present there is still suffering.
Life has been good to me, now at least there are no emotional torments and hatreds and starvation and delusions and hypocrisy. I am now thinking about something relevant and important. Too much idealism sucks it will just feel you more idiot. Letting go is healthy because it gives new hope and bright lights. Love is painful and yet it will give you an overwhelming frame of mind. On how I describe my life now, as if I have a new set of jigsaw puzzle and currently starting to solve and connect all of those pieces that will fill in the gaps for my new picture frame. I am merely 25 but I am seeing a line in my eyes at this moment … makes me want to drink more coffee.
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I was on my way to work this afternoon, I saw this man which on the other side on the window who looks like the egotistical man. The eyes, the beard, the eyelashes, the nose, the lips, and the profile of his face are extremely familiar. I didn’t realize that I am actually staring at him for almost 30 minutes and he felt uncomfortable. I am looking at him from head to toe. He gained weight and he has an immense tummy. He doesn’t usually tuck his shirt in and he doesn’t wear leather shoes, but of course, how do I know it’s been 2 years. Things change. People do as well. He can’t look straight to the eye. I don’t know but when I get off from the bus, I was literally laughing with my ass on. I just prove something that, I don’t feel anything and I wonder how come I fell to that egotistical man. Oh well. I am still laughing …
A new whole home improvement is going on in my life and currently I’m a picking up the pieces of me. It is not much but it is making a big difference in a healthier way. I am trying to feed myself with loads of things and focus on something relevant. No more Ms Antisocial who wears black, it I still believe though that shadows indeed defines light. I feel so bless to the bone and thank Him for everything.
Talking Skin 